Saturday, November 11, 2006
(random post alert!)
sometimes, you may wonder, why is it that nobody understands you? you have billions of friends laughing with you everyday, always hanging around, crapping, but none that can truely know how you feel and what you are thinking. and then you start to feel lonely and scared...
well, the fact that people dont understand you is simply due to the fact that you keep things to yourself a lot. it's not their fault really. very often we put the blame on others whenever things don't go according to the way you want it to. however, i can say that most the time, you're the one at fault, for either sending out the wrong signal to others or not clearly specifying what you want. you'll not be aware of it most of the time, it's a matter of perspective.
i don't believe that the people around are evil in any way. at least among the people i know. even if there exist such villians, they're rare. people do things for a reason. it's just that you don't know why, and at times coming up with the wrong conclusion about them. so next time if you feel like complaining/bitching/backstabbing/kao pei-ing about someone, think again. think further, think deeper, think thrice, before you affect other's impression of that person. be sure of what you say.
now we think, who's fault is it then? person A for not telling others what he wants or person B for misjudging person A? they share the blame? i suppose... the simplest way is just to blame yourself and learn from your mistakes. it works, really.
"who is your hao3 pen2 you3 (good/best friend)"
i remember being asked this question not too long ago. my answer didnt require much thinking, which in this case, seems tragic.
"none"
yes, the above load, if it doesn't concern any of you readers, it's concerns me. there's a lot of things which i keep to myself. it's not as if i don't want to let them out, it's just that i'm still looking for an outlet, someone whom i can really trust 100%. like naruto, i want to have my own 3-men team too, with team mates i can rely on fully. 4 is a good number too. 5 and above would be too big.
but until then, until i find that person(s), i know what i should be doing.
cherish what i have right now. i have friends who laugh with me, play pool, play mahjong, play cards, talk cock together. we study together, train together, sweat together, collasp together. for now, that's enough.
qps 5f/6e, rvhs 1c/2c/3k/4k,
rvhs athletes (aka carrots),
njc 06s14
njc track & field
thank you
aaron | 11:09 AM
